IS IT TRULY FRIENDSHIP OR A FACADE?

I sat on a bench reminiscing, about things past, about decisions made
And I wondered if I’d do them all over again.
To sit here today and cry over milk that was spilled
Or dare I say spoilt because, it’s really been a while
And relations...huh, well let’s just say, there are none!
Is it fair for me to remain in wonderment, as to why, I feel so betrayed?
A traitor on board a ship destined to go nowhere!
A crowd pleaser, doing everything people say, not thinking for once
About anything or anyone but the one “love”, hmph, what an irony
It’s the epitome of every lie I have ever heard
I know of deep dark secrets, things that I promised never to repeat
Just because I wanted to protect the “innocent” or maybe myself
I never thought it would go down this way
I never thought that I would feel this way...disgusted, determined to hurt
Just the same way I was hurt!
I thought I meant something! Ha! Here I was fooling myself,
Foolish, silly girl...
Now I sit and cry because it hurts, it hurts knowing that friendship...care, love, have all gone down a drain
Forgive, I hear it ringing in my ear, let it go and be happy!
Maybe it was best for me! Maybe?
Puh-lease! I sound selfish I know, how can I be selfless?
Friendship or facade? That’s what it all boils down too!
I can’t believe I fell for the obvious lies for promises, “Of course, I’d never do that to you!”
It’s ringing...friendship, facade? Both?
I don’t know what to call it
What would you?


Copyright 2008 by Carol-Anne Stephens